You have always regretted making plans with friends when they hang out, laugh, and talk about useless things. You know life is serious and they know that too, but you don’t see the point in wasting 3–4 hours in talking and laughing about things that don’t matter. Whenever you try to socialize, you end up regretting having agreed to catch up because you find it hard to connect with people and gatherings like this exhaust you. It’s not that you’re an introvert or shy — you have good communication skills, but it just doesn’t happen for you.At 23, you feel like speaking less and feel pressured when you have to talk to a person next to you, trying not to sound rude. You think it’s because you have a very specific set of interests and hobbies in life that aren’t common with people around you.
You wonder if only you feel this way or how a person living a similar life to yours can sound so irrelevant sometimes. You think maybe you’re gifted with some special kind of wisdom that they lack, or maybe they don’t have the same problems in life like you do? You cannot judge since everyone has a different story and a different approach to life.
For me, I believe that people share similar interests and emotions, they long for similar things in life but I have rarely seen two people express it or get creative with it. I myself wasn’t an expressive person until a few months ago and it was because I was hesitant to show people my true self because I had the same fear like others, being played on, being made fun of, being mishandled, however I think when you get to a certain age where you are in control of your life more, you should accept and show your original side more, and pretend less, laugh away the worries a little less, embrace your true self a little more, talk about your real self, because fulfilment only comes when you are connected to the world around you.
If you do not stay original, you will end up feeling hollow and lonely even in the brightest crowd because at some point in your life, you crave originality of heart, mind and soul, you crave real attention, real support, real care, real affection, real feelings. It is very important for the soul.